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So the test on the tuma coild have been better bud Weal with it.Most of the tuma was removed but some Bits where left as there rould have been to much damage to the brain rrying to remove them.So now i am getting hit with Radio and chemo to kill them off still going to br a couple of months till i am back on the waterthat sucks!!

It’s been a few days now since the op and Melon isin pain.Acording to the aniztasice they peeled my head like a Bananna.My right ear was ressting on my shoulder ! Now thats hardcore.The funny thing is before the dr asked if i wanted to do it under local

Anyway the thing was so big it was pushing my brain against the left handside of my head,The DR recons one heavy impact would have been enough to trigger a fit so he is actually amazed i am still alive.Thats scary and i guess anything now is a bonus.

The head is sore but thats all the staples front to back,just feal like i have had the crap beaten out of me.

This moreming at 11am they split my head open and a sergeon Peter Grndy went in and removed the Tuma on the right side of my Brain andi am still Alive !!.\the op took 4 hours and  there was alot o blood, The sergeon recons i have a substantial hole in my head !All i know is i’Vhave been cut open from my temple to the back if my neck round my right ear’It’s pretty hard And  Mssive dosehardcore.It’s all stapled up now and it hurts alot.They have done a CT scan after and he recons i look gooD,They will test the tuma this week and remove aNY bits radio therapy.Fingers crossed thiiss  The last off ny Nightmare.

AFTER THIS LOOKOUT IaFTER THIS WILL BE A FORCE TO BE RECOND WITH NO MESSING!!!!!!!

aLL THE BEBEST

cOLIN

Thanks to all thoes people who have suported me over the years  I will honour you and bEAT THIS CRAP OUT OF MY BODY. I am staying posertive due to lots ofpeoples love and suport.And a massive does of Steroedds,It’s been Emitional and a real soul finder rom the Kiting cominiuy to surfing  windsurfingI havw been touch  wiith rrabdom acts of kindness and they help so much wgwn you are down and i will always remember what you did so thank you………

SO MUCH LOVE Some of the think people have done for me have been incredible and i will Honor your Generosity and kindness from Family and Friend and surfboard shapers,These guys are doing me There best work of art to be placed on a stand to inspire me to get well and just to see what a piece of Hand created Surfboard art should be.Dripping with history, finished with love.And shaped with soul. Boards like that can do things to you..

For me this has been Emotional and i have worked out allot in my head so i am ready for what will come next with a positive look so Hopefully i will see you all around soon 3 hours until the op

SCARED U BET !

THANKS  COLIN

I have never had so much time to just take it all in and work it all out.Maybe it’s The Drugs but I have never sean things clearer (ELIMINATE THE BULLSHIT)to get to what actually maters. Its pritty Harsh packing your life up and sorting through the wreckage.BUT THEN !!!!!!

More scans and i met the Surgeon Hopefully he is the man,He was surprised i hadn’t Drowned through cesures due to the pressure in my head he then ran me through my options and what was the best for me.Basically there going to open up my head and remove as much as possible and nuke the rest so long as they’t remove to much of my brain i should be back.I will never be back the way iw as this ride has been to Revelational It almost feals like some one just came up and turned you on.So Many things to do,Build ,and be  JUST GOT TO GET PAST THIS IN ONE PEICE  AND IMPLEMENT THE PLAN BECAUSE I AM NOT MESSING ANYMORE !!

Maybe i have had to much time to over Analise sht around me but one thing is clear there’s lot of it.

So your decked out thinking your clock card is just about  to get stamped. Then just have this full on moment with yourself 1.You Bastar* you short changed your kids a daddy 2.So what did you actually do with life 3.What kind of mess are you leaving behind-for your family and what willbe there memories of you.Without getting to out there it had to be one of the most clear moments in my life.A clean case of what actually maters.On a selfish level i could have thrown my cards in and still feal like i have had the full ride!I have NEVER just let life come to me .I grabbed it no mater what it was and always took it to the next level .But when you have two kids it’s no longer about you  !

More scans !so now there it is one in the head.Then full body scans ALL CLEAR(that was no fun doing thoes scans) ,MY BLOOD IS GOOD so i just have to get the head sorted.Thanks to a large does of DEXAMETHASONE The wheels are in motion.

This is where things kind of get F$£c*ed up I left Portsmouth to go home for two weeks before the next scans in southhampton.I dont know if its the drugs but i think i must of been round every coridoor of my mine backwards now trying to eork it all out and thats when it all gets to much and you just have to put one in front of the othere and DONT !! THINK !! Just do stuff.

The only problem is the stuff your doing is packing up your life and sorting all your shit.

So I have been running around like an idiot for the last few months with a few Sharpe headaches.put it down to many things like water,coffee,Hangover on and on.Then had a strange Techno in my head no ipod on experience But just kind of put that down to the late 80 acid house days,Well ended up in a bush pucking had a kip and was fine went windsurfing ect then went off to do the China Thailand stuffthats when things got abit funky at the airport .Classic your waiting for you bags and you get 80’s techno playing in your head feeling sick and dissyand standing  in front of CUSTOMs.Managed to keep it together IMMAGINE that had the glove writen all over it LUCKY  escape. Got Home and had a new theory I had stopped smocking and was doing the gum patch thing,so it must be all to do with that,Saw the DR he packed me off for some nurofen and i was on the water that afternoon.I landed one loop on the pole kit and thought i had AXED MY HEAD IN TWO !!

I thenWent Down Cornwall the next day was really good surf and sunny,I DID 3 HOURS IN THE MORNIG AND 3 IN THE EV then had a meltdown puking and head splitting in two etc i thought it was heat ex or the water was crap.BasicalyCaroline had to drive us home with me pucking and winging.Got home but i was F%Ked maybe a day or so after that it was  mias birthday and she was having a party kids everywhere and her loser dad layingaround  all messed up ! It was at this point very obvious i was going to Hozzibut only because of my mum and wife i was still in man denial mode?????

I hate Hospitals because they scar the S$^ out off me Get past the AE desk and then it was Full steam ahead with tests and stuff.Basically had a load of scans and then get told i had a Brain TUMA I mean what do you say to that??.The only way the start was made easy was that they removed the pain !The staff at the Hospital wher AMAZING !!

After running around like a nutter getting orders done for the last 3 months it’s back to the isolation wards of China and Thailand to get the fist run of 09 boards,Do some test layups and laugh at how big the SUP band waggon is getting.I have to admit i wouldn’t be without my 9’0 Quad fish but that’s as far as it goes for me.This Spring has been so bad a paddle board isn’t a bad thing to have,But give me a wave i am on my belly.

How is that for top class ! Ali B Cable Champ

Big up on the win in Mexico !Aaron takes the first PKRA comp.

Left Oz  fall a sleep and wake up as we are coming into land at Phuket ! WTF ! Not good if you are meant to be going to Bangkok! It all ends up good apart from i am 3 hours late and my driver at Bangkok has given up and gone home leaving me to a game of try and fit the surfboards into a pink cab.The next day is just the same old factory visits to sort out any modifications and to pick up more excess baggage.After that it was a nice 4hour drive down south to Pran Buri for some testing.We scored two good days by Thailand standards and the place is pretty chilled so all in it was the perfect way to end my trip.